Gurdjieff Self Remembering and Multiple 'I'.
In the earlier posts,
We saw about ‘Self-Remembering’.
Now we will see it along with multiple ‘I’s.
Self-Remembering
One may begin Self-Remembering very vaguely,
Initially one might mistake ‘Thinking about one self’ or
‘Evaluating a Situation’
for ‘Self-Remembering’.
Though both are also a form of reflection, they are not
‘Self-Remembering’.
They are called as impure-reflection according to Sartre
usage.
But, still it will help one to recognize the mechanical
nature of the act.
We will try to understand
it through an imaginary situation.
Supposing one is angry over another for his past deeds.
There will be an element of anger in the psyche,
One can associate several causes for the anger,
Accordingly several ‘I’s will pop up.
One ‘I’ may remember good moments, another one may remember
bad moments.
An ‘I’ with a self-image might say, ‘My status is at stake’
There could be many more.
Finally,
One ‘I’ will take the precedence and expresses it self
through reaction.
In this case it would be mostly negative because
personalities always take the easy route.
To respond positively requires suppression or reconciliation
of ‘Anger’,
which is not easy.
But one might have to suppress Anger and react politely
depending on the gravity of
the situation.
But the point is anger remain.
This is normal or casual mechanical reaction based on the
Past (Ego),
One is not
remembering one self, his PRESENCE in the present.
So the perception would be
‘I am angry because he is such …’ – Impure Reflection, not
Self-Remembering.
Now,
If one remembers one self or become consciously aware of
rising anger,
Due to such a reflection,
Consciousness is
‘arrested’ at ‘Anger’ and not yet appealing
to the Past to find the
causes of the anger, which will eventually support and
sustain it.
When we say not appealing to past, not only the cause of
anger but several ‘I’s connected
to the individual as mentioned above.
As there is no appeal to the past,
None of the past ‘I’s will have the potential to influence the
perception of the present.
It is not that we forget, but in a sense they are not ‘Mine’
or do not belong to current the
‘I’ which is present, which alone one is conscious of.
The perception is altered as
‘Because of Anger, he appears as such …’ - Pure Reflection
or Self-Remembering.
In the earlier response, the ‘Anger’ needs to be suppressed
to act politely.
But now ‘Anger’ need not be suppressed or yielded to because
it is not yet related to the
Past, so not recognized to gain support and sustainability
from the past.
As it hangs in balance, no support exist for it to sustain
it self.
So,
One is totally free
to deal with the Present situation objectively (on merit), without
Any interference from the past.
The important aspect is
it is only the
Personalities that can act mechanically like a rolling stone because they
have the momentum in the form of past experience.
Now, in the absence of the past momentum, inevitably one
become conscious of the
Present and respond accordingly.
If one continues to remember one self more and more, over
time,
Mechanical False Personalities are weakened and
Self-Remembrance is strengthened.
One becomes more and more conscious and a depth is generated
in one’s awareness.
Let us now consider a much simpler situation,
If one is thirsty, need is Water but one may prefer Coke (An
imaginary Need).
Normally, one will drink Coke or suppress the Desire for
Coke and drink Water.
This is the casual reaction of personalities.
But,
In self-remembering (remembering one self),
His consciousness is arrested at being Thirsty, not yet
appealing to the past.
The Instinctive ‘I’ will prefer Water – an authentic (Real)
biological need.
The cultivated personality would prefer Coke.
As the present ‘I’ is not influenced by the past ‘I’s.
There is no ‘Demand’ for Coke; therefore there is no
‘Suppression’ of a desire.
One is free to choose Water or Coke without any stress.
One can begin with simple situations, and move over to
complex situations.
As Gurdjieff himself suggested it can and should be
practiced in everyday life events.
Unlike traditional meditation techniques which are practiced
in isolation in general.
In fact, Gurdjieff’s ‘Work’ or 4th Way has no element of
Faith, Belief, etc.
All depends on, how hard one works on his consciousness to
become aware.
More the effort, more the depth one gains.
It is organic, not organized in a traditional manner.